21 NATAL REPORT FOR SAIDA The planetary energies flow together, open into new possibilities, new connections. This combination gives an individual with a personal involvement in the energies of the collective. This is a generational aspect, which many of your contemporaries will share with you. You have a subtle intuition and unusually clear insight into others. The influence of the unconscious is especially strong in you. You need to connect with your higher self in order to be happy. You function at your best in service to the world, helping to move it closer to a vision of spiritual union between all mankind. Venus in square (within 4.6 degrees) with Jupiter The planetary energies conflict; internal and creative tensions bring rich rewards through effort over time. This aspect gives a graceful and refined nature. You are naturally attractive, although you should beware of a tendency toward vanity or idleness. You are restless and like an element of change and adventure. You have an appreciation or talent for literature and the arts, and also work well in fields such as the law, or other work with the public. You should beware of being too easily influenced by others. Mars in conjunction (within 3.8 degrees) with Saturn The strongest blend of the energies represented by these two planets. This conjunction gives a deepening and concentration, or blockage, in the area of selfconfidence and self-expression. You may be reserved or controlling, and may even appear cruel or manipulating at times. The purposeful expression of your will may be inhibited by subconscious fears, preventing action, and you may appear shy, stiff or awkward, or perhaps self-effacing, or you may overcompensate by attempting to strongly assert yourself, or to seize control of situations. You may find yourself expressing actual cruelty by the violent imposition of your will or by mental manipulation of others. In a man's chart there may be symptoms of an exaggerated maleness, such as emotional domination or recklessness. You possess a strong desire for freedom of expression that does not easily find its realization. Your lesson is in striving to overcome your fears of selfexpression, and thus come to a better understanding of yourself and others. Mars in inconjunct (within 1.6 degrees) with Chiron The planetary energies do not flow smoothly, one or the other predominates; discrimination must be employed. With this aspect you have issues around expressing anger, as well as exerting personal will versus knuckling under to authority. You have enormous energy and endurance at your
22 NATAL REPORT FOR SAIDA disposal, although you may appear timid or unsure of yourself, since your power urge is likely to be repressed. It may be that you have had many painful experiences with violence, or potential violence, on the part of someone close to you, perhaps in your early childhood. As a result of these experiences, you may fear the power of your own anger, and seek to placate your opponent in situations where a direct confrontation seems to be brewing. This aspect is the hallmark of a "passiveaggressive" attitude, in which there is hidden aggression under-expressed, rather than any form of direct attack. In fact, it is said that those with this aspect are often very good at eliciting angry behavior from others, while their own hands stay clean. This is because those people you come into close contact with may become the projection point for your own hidden violent feelings that you are failing to directly express yourself. It is often the case that the powerful emotions associated with this aspect hover below the level of conscious awareness in your psyche. As you become more aware of these patterns, you will less and less need to act them out either suppressed with passivity, or with bluster. Another manifestation of this aspect, perhaps paradoxically, is the ability to lead and be willful, to not take "no for an answer", to be ruthless in accomplishing one's aims. The willful energy of Mars is given a creative boost by Chiron, both in terms of suffering and in a better-integrated personality, in terms of conquest. A still better level of integration produces the self-assured and powerful personality who does not depend on others either to express his or her own desires, nor to be crushed by them. Mars in sesquiquadrate (within 1.3 degrees) with Midheaven The planetary energies conflict in determined subtle tension; control is required. You are likely to be on the go most of the time. This aspect gives an assertive personality who desires success in public life. You have a great drive to succeed. You are active in the pursuit of your goals with tremendous energy that need that outlet. Career issues are very important for you, although you may need to beware of too much ego-involvement in your work or professional life. Jupiter in semi-square (within 1.9 degrees) with Neptune The planetary energies conflict in determined subtle tension; calmness is required. This aspect gives an imaginative and unassuming personality. You are good and kind, considerate of others, and are friendly and easy-going. You are inclined to the mystical, seeing life in terms of visionary and poetic feelings, rather than in practical terms. You benefit from attempting a more practical and reality-based view of life.